naps, or lack thereof

austin is at work, and i get to man down the fort (which i'm totally okay with because i chose to do this, if not i'd be working at a dental office while austin was mr. mom)

this morning i wake up at 7:30, take spencer downstairs and prepare myself for lorelei to wake up.

she wakes up around 8:00 and asks for her morning chocolate milk (ovaltine) and we head downstairs. I turn on spongebob (which is a saving grace as far as i'm concerned) and let her space out while i make our morning oatmeal and toast.

we eat breakfast together and after we're finished i make her get up so i can nurse spencer ( who still has a bad habit at falling asleep at the boob, c'mon, be a man!).

he gets done and i start to feel sleepy, so i kick back the recliner and close my eyes (mistake!!!!) i hear lorelei go upstairs and think "oh she'll be fine, the bathroom door is closed (no playing in pee filled or dirty toilets) so i sleep for about 10 min, then i hear a toilet flush and i think "oh crap" so i go upstairs only to find her in my bedroom... on my bed... with BABY WIPES ALL OVER THE PLACE!!!!!!!!!!! a new NEW box of wipes. oh i was so mad, so so so so so mad because she KNOWS that playing with wipes is a HUGE NO-NO!!!!! so i have to refold what is it like 250 wipes? and place them back into the container.

i takes me a good 3 loads of folded laundry to get over how mad i am (to be honest, i was just mad that i couldn't nap without her getting into something)

so we go back down stairs, watch some more tv and i prepare lunch.

we eat lunch, pop in Monsters and lorelei begins to fall asleep (praise thee!!!), so i carry her (which i'm not supposed to do, but where else is she supposed to sleep?) and i put her in her

bed.

she wakes up (naturally), and cries to and say "don't want it" and i say, sleep! close your eyes! and i lay with her, she relaxes, takes a few sips from her sippy cup and closes her eyes, i move

and she "wakes up" and cries. (UGH!!!!!!) so i just get up and leave, go downstairs and tend to my other crying baby.

I feed him and the whole time lorelei is saying "up! pease!" " Uuuuuuuuppppppp!!!!! PPpppppppeeeeeaaaaaassssseeeeee!" and i say no.

so here we are, she's running around in cloth undies because she went pee in her potty all by herself (yay), earlier i had her in pull ups... she pooped in them and THEN sat on the potty.

oh and she managed to get poop ALL OVER HER.

oh boy.

today is a no nap day i guess, which means either an early bedtime or misery and fighting with her to stay up until her bedtime.

i have to do laundry, iron and hang that laundry :'( i have to finish dishes, vaccuum and start another load of laundry.

thank goodness for my ward and them bringing me dinner (lifesaver) because that's all i have to worry about tonight.

lately lorelei has been awesome, and i know she could just be having an off day, but argh. i hate off days. i want everyday to be awesome days.

never the less.. i love my children. grateful for them in fact.

i know it just gets harder (emotionally) as they get older .

they just wear me out sometimes ya know?

oy motherhood.