oh fun

i need to scrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaammmmmm!!

and i need a break.

lorelei is crying like crazy, and nothing i'm doing is working, so i let her just cry and i feel awful.
i don't know what to do. i'm not nursing right now because she has thrush, and my nipples, that's right, my nipples are so cracked they are bleeding. So i'm just pumping. she wont be soothed by the carrier, and i cant get her to suck on a pacifier.

i don't know what to do.......